Week 7—The Invisible Power
by edwardrubinstein
I’ve been looking at other blogs to see if anything inspires me. I haven’t a clue what to write about this week. I can’t prolong a thought, even though I have very little problem doing the exercise for the sit. For the exercise, I’m fine. I’m supposed to concentrate. But in the real world, I’m constantly being distracted. And forgetful about what to do.
After I have a negative thought I remember about my Mental Diet. I’m not yet pro-active about it, i.e. preventing the negative thought from occurring in the first place.
“I will greet this day with love in my heart.” I actually say that to myself when I awake each morning, and except for when I read Scroll II, it’s nowhere in my mentality.
The invisible force? Maybe just by doing the exercises by rote its power will be revealed. Personally, I believe that the power is within you, me, each of us. And these exercises are to help us find it. Maybe seven weeks simply isn’t enough time. That’s understandable, at least to me. Some have tapped into it already. Lots, it seems. How did they do it? Beats me.
I do feel some small changes happening, though. Nothing specific, just a general feeling of, “I’d never have thought about [that particular situation] in just that way before.” I also realize that instead of acting smarmy to one or both of my siblings (as I am want to do), I’m holding back. So maybe, just maybe, things are getting better for me. All I do know is that for things to get better, I’ve got to get better, and MKMMA is the pathway to getting better.
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you are doing well Edward . I hope the new you puts a smile on your face
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Thank you, Dorothy.
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Ed – thank you for framing up your experience…I certainly get it…some days I have these amazing moments, and then I am just me, quietly doing some things that I don’t notice as much different, noticing after the fact that I, by golly, thought that thing again, and then realize I am changed in a small way. It is the small things stacked on top of one another that build a great tower. I for one, just wish it would be there sooner, faster, and already. Change = change, no matter what.
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Yes, I wish it would happen quicker too, Diane. We’ll hang in there together.
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Hi Edward, I can relate to your experience. Sometime, it seems that I am making progress, and suddenly, there are days which nothing seems to change. I believe change is a process, we just have to keep at it. I am glad we are onto this journey together.
-Janet
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Thank you, Janet. I, too, am glad to be on the journey.
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Good Morning Ed…I applaud your effort and it sounds like yo’re acting on faith…Like our blue print builder says in the 3rd rule…We devote 10 minutes per day to build confidence. That is confidence that the class is changing us in ways that at first, we do not comprehend. I would venture to say that it is probably easier for others around you to notice some subtle changes about you…Like Diane who commented above, we all have our good days and bad…days when we feel on top of it and those days when we feel clueless….I think that there are many of us who don’t dwell on the self doubt, don’t name it , but focus on the positive developments instead. Even though we are all feeling on some days weak and uninspired, we don’t talk about it out loud, which I think leads to the thought that everyone else is getting this but me.
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You’re not alone Edward. I feel like I could have written your post and about half of the comments. I admire your perseverance and will see you at the finish line. NGU!
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Thank you for sharing your experience Ed. I too have remembered the Mental Diet after the fact. You are noticing changes and that is great, perseverance is the key. We have lived with our bad habits for so long and now exchanging them with positive habits – OG Scroll II.
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Edward, thank you for baring your soul. I too feel that I have not got it as yet. Visualization is my toughest thing to do. Sometimes rote is what we have to do until it feels real …
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Edward – thank you for sharing this glimpse into your journey – very much in keeping with both my experience and that which I read in many of the other blogs.
Stick with it and we’ll see the NEW you on the other side!
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